my own update

everyone has been following the blog for mark's status but a few have asked how i'm doing so i thought i'd put a note out about that. i'm getting better. i didn't sleep monday night and tuesday was a very long day. when the doctor came out and said it went well and that the tumor was gone i was just in shock. we found out that he was moved to recovery and i got to see him. it was a little frightening to see him there. there is a smell in the recovery room i will never forget and i hope i never smell again. when i came out and saw the MASSIVE vase of roses i was confused. i wondered who would send flowers to mark already or if one of my dads sent them for my birthday.. then i read the card and they were from mark. he arranged to have them sent with a very wonderful note inside that made me cry. who would have ever thought that the patient would send his wife flowers while he was in surgery??

i did sleep last night but i woke up and called the recovery room right away. today has been better. it is good to hear him talk and move. he moved himself from one bed to the other in teh room today. he is still not quite himself yet but that's okay.. wait. supposed to update you on me.. basically i'm okay. i feel really good about the decision to keep him here. i think that is the right thing to do. otherwise i'm pretty good. i am better right now than i have been in about a month and a half.

i've been very overwhelmed by everyone's generosity and support. i can't believe how many people love my husband (and me) and care about us. thank you just doesn't cut it but its all i can say. i know people are thinking of us and praying for us and making us dinners so later on i don't have to... it is just amazing. this is humanity at its best. i only ask everyone reading not to lose this feeling. keep it.. live your life all the time this way.. help someone that needs helping and anyone will help you in return!

maybe our miracle is that we are touching so many other lives and making everyone appreciate their families a little more and being a little kinder to your fellow man. i know i will be an even more outspoken advocate of support and love to anyone that needs it in whatever way they need it..